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Sunday, October 9, 2011 @ 1:19 PM

its been ages since i last blogged.=x dunno wat spurred me to now, but just felt like penning something down. random maybe? like i always have been.

hmm.. im a busy busy bee these days. so busy that i dun even go home! my mum is probably used to me not going home i guess? she doesnt text me to ask if im coming home. oh wait. she facebook msges me or emails me. lol. but yeah. i dun get all the nags from my mum (or dad) for not going home like i did in the holidays. probably cause my mum knows that im really busy at school? or probably cause im finally 21, so she gives me independence and freedom? or probably cause she doesnt care anymore? whatever it is, im actually glad that im kind of more independent now? used to be a homely kid, mama's girl. still remember how things started out when i first started staying in hall. missed home cooked food and soup, and cant wait to rush home every thursday since i didnt have lessons on friday. but now, im home probably on alternate weekends? sometimes, im back in woodlands for tuition, but i turn and go back to hall. home? next week maybe?

im sitting at home right now. in a way, probably why i dun return home is also cause there isnt much to do? coming home, most of the time i face the television. and i dun really talk much to my family either. its like just a bit of chit chat with my mum. which i can do on facebook chat too! lol. yeah my mum is so hip. she is so IT savvy these days that sometimes she choose to email me to ask me smth or ask me on facebook, instead of texting or calling me. lol. cute. or probably being home is just about the face-time? like show my face at home, for my parents to see that yes their daughter still exist? hmm..

im heading back to hall soon.. there seems to be ever so much work to do? i dunno why. though many at times, i just cant bring myself to do them. whether its tutorials or readings. projects? i try. cause i dun want to bring others down if i dun do my work. uni life is just so.. packed? busy? stressful? i dunno wat else. but many ppl say, enjoy your uni life cause its the last time that you have to enjoy before you step into the working world. very true. but on the other hand, which part of university spells enjoy? not that im not enjoying, cause im very much taking another route, instead of the study hard and get that first class honours route. truth to be told, i pretty much told myself that yes i want to get that first class honours out of my university education. but my first year in uni has told me, forget about it. maybe i should just be contented with my second lower (or if possible, second upper) honours, and enjoy the rest of my time. first class? its out of my reach.

having spent my first one year in uni as a loner, i kind of enjoy uni life more this second year. in school, its pretty much that same i guess. since ppl form cliques in year 1, so i dun really wanna crash a clique like i did and failed in poly before. but actually i dun really try much, cause i meet those ppl just in one class. and since i no longer have lectures now, i just have "modular friends" will do. haha. in hall. life is pretty much different i would say. it no longer like last year, whereby i walk around hall not knowing anyone, and no one seems familiar, apart from the few i knew from hall cheer. is it because i was a GL? probably yes, probably no, but i doubt so cause im quite a fail GL. lol. but i guess, ppl know me cause of my bf? or should say, i know many more ppl cause of him. result of not attending FOC in year 1? yes i dunno many ppl in hall! hope it isnt too late now though. seriously, being in somewhere where you know others and others know you too feels much better than being a loner whom no one knows and no one cares.

hmm. i was speaking about becoming independent. yes im becoming independent from home. but in a way, i think im damn dependent on my bf.=x to put it simply, im just damn sticky. lol. always wanna stick by him. still honeymoon phase? probably not? i dunno. how do you define honeymoon? we have been together for 6 months plus now. not an easy 6 months, but still, we got through, and i believe it will make us stronger. (: the first 6 months would probably be like the extreme honeymoon and lovey-dovey period for most couples. but for us, it probably lasted a shorter while cause the amount of time we spend together is probably wat one year couples (or even longer) spend. so, the more time spent together spells more conflicts? possible. but it also helps in understanding one another i guess? like the chinese saying goes, 相见好，同住难. i guess its also cause of the increased chances of conflicts? im not saying that we are not lovey-dovey though. i have freshie telling me that he always see us so lovey-dovey, together all the time. haha. yes i said that im sticky. haha. but probably, just to put it simply, we have our fair share of ups and downs, probably more downs than normal 6 months relationships would have. but each time we go down, i just tell myself that it is better for us to have conflicts now, gain understanding, work things out and go smoothly. cause what doesnt bring us down makes us stronger. we have our differences, but no two person are the same. so every couple would. its just the compromise that each is willing to make to make things work.

i love my bf. much more than i would have imagined. but yes. that also explains my dependence i guess. and i hope to make things work! if we can get past uni, then i guess its all the way. (:

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